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Subconscious Influence of my Culture
But I feel like I ought to be rebaptized, or even better debaptized, right now. When I rationally know it doesn't have much consequence, what people did to me as a baby, except in people's (and mostly mine, as nobody else knows about this) imagination.
Everyone's mind works on a lot of symbolism, sympathetic magic, tradition, especially those people who think they don't.
Really, how can I get dechristianed? (Not literally, it's not the christianity that bothers me). I don't like half belonging to a religion but mostly I don't like having been named, how do I get de-named?
Stupid superstitious mind that demands rites, and symmetry, my mind is a bit obsessive-compulsive about symmetry, if I step on a rock with one foot I have to step on a rock by accident with the other on to neutralize it or the feeling will stick, and if I get baptized by accident I have to get anti-baptized to neutralize it or the feeling will stick. Awful how irrational and spiritual and structure-making human minds are. Well at least it's possible to be aware of it.
Symmetry: the absolute value of x drives me crazy, because stuff just isn't going to add up to zero like that. The letter w makes me uncomfortable for having such an unbalanced name. Most two-syllable names feel like they slope. The word zero is irritating because it has a lot more substance than what it means does.
Minds don't quite work right because they've developed to be intuitive and create order quickly where there isn't any.
Everone's insane, just the majority of people are all insane in the same way.
Everyone's mind works on a lot of symbolism, sympathetic magic, tradition, especially those people who think they don't.
Really, how can I get dechristianed? (Not literally, it's not the christianity that bothers me). I don't like half belonging to a religion but mostly I don't like having been named, how do I get de-named?
Stupid superstitious mind that demands rites, and symmetry, my mind is a bit obsessive-compulsive about symmetry, if I step on a rock with one foot I have to step on a rock by accident with the other on to neutralize it or the feeling will stick, and if I get baptized by accident I have to get anti-baptized to neutralize it or the feeling will stick. Awful how irrational and spiritual and structure-making human minds are. Well at least it's possible to be aware of it.
Symmetry: the absolute value of x drives me crazy, because stuff just isn't going to add up to zero like that. The letter w makes me uncomfortable for having such an unbalanced name. Most two-syllable names feel like they slope. The word zero is irritating because it has a lot more substance than what it means does.
Minds don't quite work right because they've developed to be intuitive and create order quickly where there isn't any.
Everone's insane, just the majority of people are all insane in the same way.