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posted by [personal profile] jay_walk at 08:20pm on 17/10/2011 under ,
as a third person singular pronoun that is. It's my new favourite candidate.
(I'm just talking about third person pronouns for a person of neutral gender, no gender, both, etc., ruling out the options of going non-neologisms such as by both or by it or by they. For an unspecified person or a person whose gender I do not know yet or a generic person, I use they, while the very traditional thing to use is "he", which is sexist, or "he or she", which is binarist. I don't tend to use a neologistic word for this case, although some people do.)
Just because it's phonetically perfect for it. It fits into an English sentence well. Pronouns with more complex and uncommon sounds in them like x or z are going to slur when they're in often used, unemphasized, and small words like pronouns are, and when they do they'll turn to something involving h or s sounds, which makes them hard to keep apart from other third person pronouns.
Another reason I dislike the more common options phonetically is because they're too close to female or male pronouns (zie, hir, for example). Not that people can't call themselves that if they don't see that quality in them or like it to describe them, it just makes them not perfectly neutral in my perception. For example for myself I don't mind "hit", which is middle English for it but declines as "him, his". Phonetically it sounds like it means something between he and it, which is why I'd use it for myself, but why it can't be a good new neutral pronoun.
And the ones that are them without the th I just find phonetically unaesthetic Because they either begin with a glottal stop or slur with the preceding word. Personal taste I guess.
(unrelated note: the quenya word for personal taste in phonetic aesthetics is lamatyalve)
Thon is a demonstrative (?) pronoun in some dialects, apparently, so that's why it fits phonologically as a pronoun in an English sentence.
I have no idea how to decline it. Demonstrative pronouns don't decline. Although I'd guess they did in middle english and certainly in old English. It might be easiest to just let it be the same in all cases. Or to decline analogous to "one": thon-thon-thons
I'd love to enforce bringing back accusative and dative cases for pronouns and getting rid of some prepositions, but anyway.

And yay, I managed to have some thoughts and write something.
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posted by [personal profile] jay_walk at 05:03pm on 16/10/2011
- it's working ok with the veganism. I've had Indian food and Thai food and more Indian food, and stuff made with soy milk. And sushi. But besides the sushi it's working. Yes one can make mashed potatoes with soy milk and margarine, but it tastes rather bland, and half of what I'm finding to eat is composed of potatoes and oil.
-I've just spent the whole vacation watching Big Bang Theory and reading A Dance with Dragons. There isn't much to complain about with that book, except that I liked it better when people died and then stayed dead, by now I don't care who dies because they'll probably turn up again. I liked it better when there was less magic. The stakes were higher and things were more certain when there weren't a hundred different religions whose magic works. I wouldn't mind it in a work with mythological tone, because there its not really about what's happening in the first place, but here it rather de-grounds everything.
- I'm not sure I haven't written this before, but Lawrence of Arabia is a fascinating person. It's a great movie.
- obviously the part about me writing here some more during vacation didn't happen.
- I realised I have about a hundred days of high school left, ever, so I'm going to stop complaining about math class and try to learn some of those horrible german words for things instead. I'll just memorise how the example solutions in the textbooks are written before the exam, math is easy like that.
- I saw a paediatric endocrinologist, he called me a girl, I proceeded to not talk to him, which was childish, so he assumed I understand nothing and spent a few hours trying to explain it to me without using any words I might not understand. Which was sort of funny really. Also they have stopped lecturing me on neuroplasticity and the irreversible damage I am doing to my psyche and have instead taken up lecturing me on how effectless it all is. They change positions on a lot of things and give me a lot of false information. They're probably too stupid to realise how hypocritical they are instead of actually lying, though.
-no update on where I might be going to college yet, of course.
- I want to read a nice simple fantasy book where the good guys and the bad guys throw weapons and magic at each other, no genre deconstructing or parody or social criticism or moral discussion involved. My brother leant me this thing with Egyptian gods in it, I'll see how that is.
-and I forget to go to fencing this week too. Tomorrow though.
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posted by [personal profile] jay_walk at 12:33pm on 08/10/2011 under ,
which means I'm back, from using the fact that I've got college applications to finish as an excuse for not writing or reading or fencing or anything, that is. Finished applying.

-I've read another book, The Master and Margarita. Its a fun book, and I might get to write a research paper about a history of depictions of Satan, that would be my chosen topic. The problem might be that the topic is a bit Europe-centric and nothing to do with globalisation or world politics.

-math class is awful, as I'm sure I've told everyone I know and a few people I don't know about at length. Just so stupid.

-german class is great, at least from my perspective. The book has an automaton in it which I take as an excuse to monologue about Frankenstein, Metropolis, Bladerunner, and anything else I can think of.

-maybe I should get a tumblr? But then again my problem is not lack of places to communicate, just having nothing to say.

- I'm lending my computer to my brother (to play darkspore on), so that's a test of how well an iPad can completely replace a laptop.

-trying out whether one can make mashed potatoes with soy milk and margarine instead of milk and butter.
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posted by [personal profile] jay_walk at 11:38am on 17/09/2011 under , ,
Today: rowing trip, college application (open form, start filling out, do looking at which colleges I like or making appointments with counsellors or essay writing as necessary).
And that is entirely enough for today.
But no, I have to be such a self-loathing perfectionist that I think I'm failing at life whenever I don't finish twenty books a week, post deep world-changing insights daily, win at running and fencing and rowing four times a week, never not be best in school, write awesome fiction, and meet new people all the time. I am making my own life awful by constantly thinking there's so much I ought to be doing right now.
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posted by [personal profile] jay_walk at 08:06pm on 16/09/2011 under , ,
I just realised I have some of that type of sociological or whatever opinions that people are so fond of discussing. I thought my opinions were sort of the obvious ones that I don't need to tell anyone because it's so obvious, but apparently not.
So, the whole "born this way" thing, suddenly lgbt people have taken to using it rather a lot, as a general statement of pride instead of purely as a counterargument.
I am firmly of the opinion it is the wrong argument to be having.
People do realise we've been arguing this point literally at least for a hundred years? Do the simplest ideas always take this long? Are we really that slow?
As far as I can tell a hundred years ago the argument was that it's not their fault they're gay, they're not committing that crime on purpose, they just cannot help it and ought to be pitied.
That may have been a relatively sympathetic view a hundred years ago, but why are we still having the same discussion? We shouldn't be telling people that people regrettably just can't help being gay, we ought to argue that it doesn't matter the slightest why because people ought to be able to do whatever they want for any reason at all. I don't want to discuss some "gay gene" when I don't care whether it's genes or god or the flying spaghetti monster or just deciding you want to make out with a dude right now, they point isn't why the point is it doesn't matter why.
I think it isn't a good idea for queers or anyone to attribute their lives to genes or god or fate. Not that I'm saying it is a choice (that would be stupid), but quit focusing on how it's not their fault; it's entirely irrelevant whose fault it is when there's nothing wrong in the first place.
Can we just get it over with, making all the stupid cishetero people stop being so very stupid, and get on with it, and maybe come up with something interesting instead of waiting for them to catch up?

Ok, rant over. How am I today?
1. Sick.
2. Sick of peoples repetitiveness.
3. Sick of lgb people, bored with the whole obsession on sex and romance, although I suspect asexual people have the same obsession with their lack thereof, so
4. Sick of people saying anything at all, especially about themselves.
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posted by [personal profile] jay_walk at 08:32pm on 11/09/2011 under ,
...and I'm just going to skip the beginning part about "I have no time and no ideas so here's something short and irrelevant", because it seems that type of situation is status quo.
And I ought to be translating a few lines of Metamorphoses right now. Which is way better than some things, but the fact that we've been on the Daphne story for a month and a probably not going to do much else is frustrating, because I already know that story, and because people have awful opinions on it.

So anyway, Paradise Lost.

It is brilliant. It's not too difficult either, easier than Shakespeare.
This is the book where Satan is the protagonist and is supposed to be evil but comes off as quite more reasonable and sympathetic than the other side.
The parts which retells genesis and the parts about Adam and Eve being in Paradise get a bit boring after a few pages of praising, but that's just about the only flaw, and even that is sometimes very nice when the cosmology is described, the layout and composition of the universe.
The newest developments:
Raphael is telling Adam about the war between angels and fallen angels, to warn him against sinning. In this story, Satan makes some nice speeches about not serving god (interestingly, questions whether god created angels, as he claims). Abdiel doesn't like it. Then there's a war, and they are about equal in numbers. On the first day it ends when Michael battles Satan and wounds him. On the second day, Satan invents cannons. I think this is the most awesome thing the author could have put in the story to make Satan human, because that's what humanity does, think of some really impressive invention when the problem doesn't solve itself through their preexisting abilities. Of course this looks evil, and cowardly, using machinery on angels. So this works for a while, until the angels go and throw mountains at them, which isn't so good for the dark side. On the third day, god sends his son, who of course throws them into hell. The Jesus in this book is not as peaceful and loving as other portrayals. He's mostly just an extension of God, who is the old testament version who does nothing but enforce worship.
After Raphael tells Adam this story, and retells genesis, Adam tells Raphael about his first few days of existing, and about god coming there personally to discuss creating Eve with him. Nothing about Adams previous wife in this story, so I don't know where I picked up the notion that there is such a thing. Also, god is male in this story, it says Eve is less in gods image than Adam. Adam and Raphael and Eve and the narrator go on for quite a bit about how great domestick, marital love is (theyre officially husband and wife without having gotten married, but i forgot why). Which is the less interesting bit and makes me want Satan to just get around to corrupting them already.
Also, apparently angels have love to, be running their essences through each other, or something like that, and the question makes Raphael blush. Which is slightly more interesting, I am now going to read some Satan/Raphael into this, because it makes me suddenly far less inclined to hate Raphael.
Raphael leaves ( there is some nice description of the angel, which also ameliorates my desire to punch his arrogant face for having been mean to Satan somewhat).
Adam and Eve are all blissful again for far to long, than they're worried about the whole Satan thing for a bit...
Satan posesses a snake, talks to Eve, and we all know how that turns out. Since I had been of the opinion that of course one should try eating it for years, I'm not having any new opinions on this.
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posted by [personal profile] jay_walk at 09:27pm on 10/09/2011 under ,
Having some sort of moral conundrum, and nobody to talk some sense into me about it right now with it being the middle of the night. About feminism, I suppose, or maybe about art and culture, really about women, or about the portrayal thereof. I am just unable to remember whether it matters or why it should matter.
So I'm reading this book, which is a very intelligent and complex and nice book overall, but like most books female characters are nothing but plot devices that illustrate or influence actual characters' development. Which I probably would have protested some time ago. Objectification and all that.
So... does it somehow negatively influence the world if I do nothing to women in my own writings except use them as archetypes? (and I'm inclined to use romantic archetypes right now, the ones from grecoroman mythology and the tragic ones having to do with suicide and consumption and drowning and such, which are all quite idealising and quite removed from reality). It probably does generally not help society move on for me to do that, but I frustratingly just can't think of why it isn't perfectly fine for society to just keep on being slightly sexist like that.
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posted by [personal profile] jay_walk at 10:48am on 06/09/2011
Oh look I forgot about writing, again.

Have got to go to school in a few minutes (am skipping out on a politics debate right now. Umm.) so I'll just inform the Internet of a random fact:

For absolutely no logical reason, I could listen to Kraftwerk all day. God am I German, but it's just so neat and organised, and it goes on forever. Not that I have any idea of music, but other stuff like Daft Punk is just so messy. Also, I like mechanically distorted voices ( purposefully to be mechanic, not just random synthesisers). And obviously I like old science fictiony things.

Next note: apparently I'll be attending a party cross dressed. My opinion on that: I wish more people would do so, it's not like it's a huge effort to wear a set of clothes, but people are acting like it is. Besides that I've got to find someone to borrow a dress from.

( maybe I ought to just post my summarising Paradise Lost via chat, as the part about what I've been reading lately)
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posted by [personal profile] jay_walk at 09:01pm on 02/09/2011 under , ,
im not going to lecture people on it, I'm going to try it.

I stopped meat about 7 years ago not counting fish, 5 years ago counting fish, but have been on and off about fish the last two years, and then I've been going towards vegan and no fish the last months.

I wrote earlier (or maybe I didnt post that) that heresy is certainly something everyone should do more often, and with that I don't at all mean heresy against God because that's meaningless if it doesn't matter to you, but any heresy which feels completely wrong, improper, immoral, etc. for no logical reason (that is, it doesn't actually harm anyone).
But I couldn't think of what I could do, probably because I was thinking too much in the direction of religion, where no amount of putting up or destroying symbols actually means much to me.

So I'm going to eat meat for a week.

Then I'll think about where that came from and be vegan for three weeks just to be safe I don't decide I like it? In penitence? That's how you can tell it is a habit that's gotten too established without logical reason, when you feel you must repent after breaking it, and is afraid to lose it.
I think everyone ought to find one and break it.
So obviously, no rules about what I do after that week.

One week = now ( friday evening ) to Saturday

First observation:
when you're vegetarian for five years you just plain don't see 70% of the food there is. It only just occurred to me that I haven't a clue what other types of sandwiches besides the three I've been eating offers or what's in them or how they taste. After a while you don't consider every food available, you just gloss over it.
Related: there's tons of food I don't know about. So apparently there exists (in Germany) something called mettwurst which as far as I can tell looks and tastes just like salami, not that I'm good at knowing how salami is supposed to be.

Could do with butter.
Really I am not having much of a reaction to this, mostly because I'm writing at the same time and it tastes more of salty than of meat and does not have conspicuous texture.

Observation # 3:
it is probably really easy to eat meat and never think about it if you're in the habit anyway and you're for example watching tv at the same time.
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posted by [personal profile] jay_walk at 05:01pm on 29/08/2011
I can't think of anything interesting to write, which is bad as I've got to go fencing in an hour, so here's some more stuff I've already told people about.

Veganism, it isn't working because I forget half the time concerning milk and cheese and eggs that are baked into stuff or in chocolate or such.
Also there dont seem to be vegans that don't mind leather and such, most vegans or vegetarians seem to have a completely different motivation from me, which is not hurting animals.
I wouldn't mind killing animals, but animals which have been bred and kept and killed en masse disgust me, domesticated animals that have been made useless and sickly of any kind disgust me, to the point where I really do not want to put said animals or anything that came out of them in my mouth.
The problem is I am not finding vegans that aren't either wanting to protect animals or very careful about their health, and I want to hear about neither really, I'd just like cheese substitute that didn't come out of a cow, without the ideology.


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